Keep holding on.

Keep holding on.

Fight HP Fight!

I will rise above all these.

I will make it through.

I will not give up.

I will fight.

I will prove them all wrong.

Do it for yourself.

Yes, you can!

I can do this.

I can finish this.

That's right. Just gotta do it.

Please, trust yourself for this one time.

Ee-Ring

It is almost 2am now.

I just came back from a friend's party.

Somehow, for some reasons, I feel empty inside.

It was a good night. The guys cracked some dirty jokes and we had dominos pizza.

The friends celebrated birthday for the birthday girl & they even made her a clip.

We were all in her room while watching it & it was touching to see the boyfriend beating the egg whites, hand-making her the cake.

The people cheered & sang her the birthday song.

I almost cried, being in the situation.

It was mainly because, exactly a few months ago, on my birthday, the things that had happened.

Being in a foreign land alone have definitely toughen me a lot.

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I cannot remember when was the time that I feel pampered.

I cannot remember how it really feels to have people that care for you & like you for who you really are.

I cannot remember clearly when was the last time that people actually appreciated me for what I did & actually showed their gratefulness, be it, in words or actions.

I have never really expect anything back from people for doing something good, but the last thing that I would really want, is to be stepped on.

I know I should be grateful that I even have the chance to come overseas to pursue my studies.

There are people that waited & dreamed for their whole life, to be in my place. =)

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I would say things are getting better & better now.

Oh remember about the friend on the previous post?

The friend that invited me over for dinner?

Turned out that it wasn't a cell group thing.

It was just a simple dinner for friends to catchup with each other's lives.

I had fun. Met a Japanese girl who is here to get her second degree.

Tell me! How cool is that?!

And made another new friend. She's from Malaysia too!

Doing civil engineering in her last year of Uni.

We chatted for quite a bit.

It was a lovely dinner with awesome people.

Should have this kind of gatherings with the people more often!

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Ching-Ching

Woohoo!

I just had two cups of Japanese tea & I am all hyper now!
Feel like I can kill a cow now! Haha!
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This week has been pretty awesome!
(I know I use a little whee bit too much of "Exclamation marks" Haha!)

It's been quite a ride emotionally.

Flash back of memories.

Things that I have done.

Things that I shouldn't have done.

Things that I shouldn't have said.

Things that I could have done to save the situation.
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I have a dinner to attend later tonight.

A friend that I was introduced a few weeks back, suddenly messaged me, asking me to join her for dinner.

I kinda knew what she's up to.

Cause you see, she's an active member of a church group & it's on a friday night! So it must be a cell group thingie right? =}

I didn't reply it on the spot & for some reasons, I bumped into her in a friend's graduation ceremony last night.

So we chatted for a bit & I decided to give it a go.

Hmmm. So let's see what will happen tonight.

Haha!

Don't get me wrong. I have nothing really against religions but I just find it a little wheeee bit annoying if someone starts to get really pushy with me. =)
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Alright, let me try to upload a picture!

Should really get a camera soon!

28/4/2010. Pic was taken on my way back, was mesmerized by how beauty the roses were. End of Autumn. Perth.

This is my Uni.!

It's very pretty, isn't it?

I was practically taken aback by how pretty it can be when I first saw it for myself during my 1st sem in Perth.

My Uni. has this really old Harry-Potter looking buildings around.

Green grasses fields. Pigeons. Ducks by the river.

And there's even peacocks in our campus!

How can one not fall in love with it? =)

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3/5/2009 Little sleep. Mugging for a paper. KL

I know it's kinda shameless for me to say this but now that I look at this picture, I kinda find myself to be quite..Ermmm... Cute?!

Hahaha!

It's funny cause I have always thought myself to be anything but Cute. =}

Ahhhh. Ohh woman!

Be confident yoooo!

Alright, shall remind myself from time to time that I am awesomely cute & funny!

Just because!!

CONFIDENCE IS ESSENTIAL!

*ROAR*

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Okay, enough of nonsense crap!

I have mountain of works pilling up infront of me. =(

Ohhhhh when only I will learn that CONSISTENT WORK IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN LAST MINUTE!

So much that I want to achieve but so little time & no motivations blurrrhhh.

Gotta get the engine started URGHHHHH!

VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOM VROOOOOOOOOM please! Wtf!

Be brave

I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.

Should not count on another person's reaction for inspiration.

Should not let someone's lack of excitement cause myself to lose hope.

I guess I am just no independent enough.

Experst

" Dear self, You have to know that experts were once a beginners. Please, Don't give up."

I must

It is again, one of those nights.

The feeling of loneliness.

2.50am

Year 2009. Genting, Malaysia.

No matter how hard I try to deny it,

It will always be there.

I need to put it into action.

For all the people who have always been there for me,

I thank you.

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It's getting a little bit annoying sometimes.

Me, keep coming back to same issue.

Self pity is one of the worst traits in humankind.

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Year 2009 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

I remember I was on the toilet bowl doing my business when this picture was taken. >.<

Haha!

It's been so long. And I always find this picture of me to be very sweet. =)

A very genuine smile.

But yea, what do you expect?

I was happy.

No, wait, I was beyond happy.

I was thrilled. I was living the time of my life.

I had this group of amazing friends who just loved me for being me!

Those were the good times.

Year 2008. Heritage Gym, Penang Island, Malaysia.

I remember that, at that point of time, I was really crazy about looking good.

Spent almost the whole day in gym, doing exercise.

Haha!

Life was so much simpler back then.

Thingmazie

I have been wanting to write this down.

My resolutions for Year 2011.

I really need to set myself some short term goals.

For this case, goals for Year 2011.

Things that I would like to achieve in this year.

I shall name this project a cool name, like Project 2011 FTW

(LOLZ! So much for a cool name! >.<)

Let's start, shall we?

1. Be organized. Have a bloody good time-management.

Seriously, I can't afford to lose anymore time. Gotta fully utilize my time & live up to my fullest potential.

2. Be punctual.

Punctuality. Enough said.

3. Set your priorities right.

A skill that takes time to learn.

4. Learn to say NO.

Stop wasting time entertaining people that don't matter. Just gotta realize that

The most important person in my world is ME. Noone else but ME. Sad, but true & it took me all these while to realize this.

5. 36.24.36!

Lose some fats. Been saying this for years & it is about time for me to put it into action. Whether you like it or not, Looks matters.

6. Never stop learning new things.

That is, read more, learn new skills, take up new hobbies, go out and explore more. Keep your curiosity level high. Life is too short to be wasted! =)

7. Don't lose yourself.

Be yourself. If someone likes you, he/she gotta like you for who you are, but not someone you pretend to be.

8. Friends ≠ Acquaintances

The equation says it all.

So this project starts right NOW! Today, 18/3/2011, 11.08pm.

Duration : One full year.

Things to achive : 8 items above.

We shall come back and see the results on 1/1/2012!

Wooohooo! I can't wait to see the results!

Hopefully, I will manage to succeed all. =D

Again & Again!

The keyword is : " Don't give up!"

Kickie

Woohoo!

Just got back from Kickboxing with Lindy!

It's always fun to hang out with Lindy. =)

Went to the James Oval to support the guys for soccer and ended up feeding mosquitoes. >.<

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Today was a happy day! Cause! I made my first, very own vietnamese roll! =D

Didn't know that actually they have a fried one as well. Gotta google it & try it next time.

Hmmm. Let me try to upload the picture of it.

I still don't have a camera so a camera phone is all I got.

16/3/2011 Vietnamese Spring Roll FTW! Perth

Rice noodles, mint leaves, crab sticks, cucumber & carrot is all you need!

It looked quite decent, eh?

It tasted not that bad too. I would say very close to the one they are selling outside? =D

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Had a test today which worth 10% of the unit.

Really feel the need to spend more time studying to understand the concept of the unit.

Not only for the unit but for other units as well.

I still remember how I would relentlessly spend hours on Starbucks mugging for a paper last time.

How every marks means the world to me.

But now, Somehow, I lost the drive and motivations along the way. =(

Some say, it's because that I don't really love what I am studying?

Hmm....

All I know now is that, I gotta find them all back!

I know. I am gonna be amazing. I just know.

Hahaha!

*Pats self on shoulder*

The key word is : " Don't Give up!"

(Ca't stand myself sometimes!)

Alright, time to get back to life! =)

Pizza Day!

Ohh.

Just came back from a run. Had this sudden urge to run at 8.50++pm at night. =}

Lots of things happened today.

To start off, I overslept today & skipped one morning lecturer & felt really bad about it. =(

I really shouldn't do that again. Gotta lectopia it soon.

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Met up with Jam for lunch. We sat on the bench with hawaiian pizza on hand and talked.

Hmm.

I know it's very bad to think this way but I sometimes wonder that, she cares so much about this, is it because she now has something that is worth-gossiping to share with her friends or it is solely just that she cares for my well-being.

Maybe, combination of both?

(Gahh! I think I have to start reading/writing more. Now I struggle to find the right word to describe the exact feelings I have.)

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Anywhoo, I think I have changed a lot since. It is not like I just noticed it.

Coming to Perth to study has definitely changed me.

I realized that now I don't easily trust people like how I used to be.

Not so gullible anymore, I guess? =)

Like people have intentions and schemes in everything that they do.

I know this is really unhealthy but after being through all these, what can I say?

Still, I keep reminding myself that : "Not everyone around you that are nice to you have intentions."

They are still nice & kind people around.

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Multiple & Mixed feelings.

Kebab passed me a note just now. A really short note to remind me about Viv.

It is very hard to tell that who is telling the truth and who is not.

I have still this tingling feelings that Kebab is still trying to fish for sympathy.

Like, why would you always trying to want to make yourself sound like the victim?

When, you are not really the victim in the first place?

But then again, at the end of the day,

Is the truth really that important?

Surprisingly, this doesn't affect me as much as I thought it would be.

I hope this is a good sign.

Alright, time to get back to reality.

Have a tutorial to do tomorrow. Yay!

Oh-La!

Alright, I think I am really that kind of person that needs a diary.

So that I can keep track of what I have done for the day.

To make sure that I do my work.

To make sure that I don't waste my days away just like what I did today.

(Spent the whole day surfing on the net, doing pretty much nothing ={ )

Will come back to update more but first I need to get myself a camera!

The old camera of mine has already broken. =(

Ahhhhh.

It is almost 1.30am now.

Better go sleep soon!

Goodnight to you!